I'm happy today....the first thing which crosses my mind is why i'm feeling happy today?i cannot define the answer or may be i should answer it like "Antonio had answered in MERCHANT OF VENICE when he was asked why he is unhappy?He had said that he was not happy so he thought he was unhappy........"
I'm not unhappy so i'm happy today.Though nothing extraordinary or special happened but still i'm happy to know that everything went normal today.
sometimes we like to see normal things happening to us because even to have the accustomed things is a part of miracle of our life......
Many a times it happens that i get bore of the usual stuff.Following the same schedule everyday.To go everyday to same hospital.conducting the same duties there.Either i'm in the ward or in the clinic or may be in the theatre assisting the surgies.
It means it's so important to have normal things happening to us.but what is normal?we are so narrow minded people what ever happens everyday we start taking that normal and when something different happens we either call it special or abnormal......
I think i should follow the quote"To know and not to act on what you know is equal to not knowing"
Everyday is special.everyday holds something new for us.we should accept the things the way they are coming to us.......open your arms and try to embrace the things coming towards us."everything is for our good"
Hey Ganu Bhaiya give me strength to stay satisfy and happy with whatever i'm facing...
I read it somewhere "God's purpose is simply perfect.He wants to show you things that only you can understand.By living what you are living and by being in the place you are now."
If i maintain this thinking i don't think i'll ever be sad.....but main problem is this naughty mind nevr stays stable........lol
The most notorious but the precious most is my mind!
If i continue noticing the miracles around me i'm sure i'll be able to keep my mind in control which will be in itself a big miracle.......lol...sounds like a vicious circle.What an Irony!!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Sunday, April 20, 2008
The darker side of Truth
Today two different people made same comment....It must be fun working in the hospital?
I answered them straight away no it's not.
how can it be fun when we are witnessing soo much of pain..pain..and still more pain..around us.
I'm a bit depressed today.....hmmm.......
when i was in university during my medical course that time reading books and medical cases and latest articles were soo intersting.
I know i was working hard to achieve good grades....everyday trying my best to learn something new which will help me in being good student.........
Today i understood that reading can make us good learner or good teacher but to be a good doctor we have to swim in the sea of pain and the survival of both patient and doctor is a challenge.
Sometimes i have doubt that weather i have picked the right profession for myself....Am i at the right place.....
My family and friends keep encouraging me whenever i am in dilemma...............
I'm sometimes scared what if something goes wrong because my incompetency.Will i be able to handle serious emergency cases with best of my capabilities and with efficiency.......
Unknowingly my pt's have become part of my life.even if i try to deny that i'm not emotionally related to my patients.I might fool others with this,how can i fool myself...
but i have recently realised that i'm not just affected about deaths but the pt's pain also matters to me....
I have realised that it's not patients which make difference to me it's life around me which matters.....
In my heart i'm always saying a small prayer to Ganu bhaiya to help me,to stay close to me so that he can guide me in hard times.....
And still if i'm depressed and scared i start feeling that may be it's Ganu Bhaiya's fault to trust me.
He is using me as an instrument in saving or declining someone's life......
It's him who does everything but through me......
Every life which is saved it's his miracle and one's i loose is the darker part of truth........
Everyday brings something new...Sometimes it's incredibly appealing to be instrumental in the miracle.
I feel closer to my Lord..It happens to be a beautiful feeling in the air.
"In the pain we are trying to look for some gain!!"
The pain of a patient,the pain of a doctor to help this patient in their problem..
the gain of the patient to get cure from the disease and the gain of the doctor here i don't mean monetary but satisfaction that pt is healthy and now going back home.
The smile which pt has on his face before leaving hospital.It is more than million dollars in one's account.....
At the end of the day,lying on the bed with my eyes close i see the smiling face of the patients waving back,saying thanks and bye.The satisfaction,the peaceful sleep overpowers me......
Hmmm.......this is a miracle.May be not everyone will understand but those who does they live for that beauty.
But what do i do for my fears?Even now while writing i'm having goosebunbs......i feel a lump stuck in my throat.......
I'm scared but i can't quit....
Though i'm not sure where Ganu Bhaiya is leading me but i have to show trust in him and keep going......
I had read somewhere"God doesn't work for you but he works with you!!"
I think it's time for me to reduce my adrenaline levels.A Man of Courage is full of faith.....
It's part of Ganu Bhaiya's miracle...He always send problems and solution together but in such a jumble form that by the time you sort out the things, have alreday lived one whole lifetime.........
I answered them straight away no it's not.
how can it be fun when we are witnessing soo much of pain..pain..and still more pain..around us.
I'm a bit depressed today.....hmmm.......
when i was in university during my medical course that time reading books and medical cases and latest articles were soo intersting.
I know i was working hard to achieve good grades....everyday trying my best to learn something new which will help me in being good student.........
Today i understood that reading can make us good learner or good teacher but to be a good doctor we have to swim in the sea of pain and the survival of both patient and doctor is a challenge.
Sometimes i have doubt that weather i have picked the right profession for myself....Am i at the right place.....
My family and friends keep encouraging me whenever i am in dilemma...............
I'm sometimes scared what if something goes wrong because my incompetency.Will i be able to handle serious emergency cases with best of my capabilities and with efficiency.......
Unknowingly my pt's have become part of my life.even if i try to deny that i'm not emotionally related to my patients.I might fool others with this,how can i fool myself...
but i have recently realised that i'm not just affected about deaths but the pt's pain also matters to me....
I have realised that it's not patients which make difference to me it's life around me which matters.....
In my heart i'm always saying a small prayer to Ganu bhaiya to help me,to stay close to me so that he can guide me in hard times.....
And still if i'm depressed and scared i start feeling that may be it's Ganu Bhaiya's fault to trust me.
He is using me as an instrument in saving or declining someone's life......
It's him who does everything but through me......
Every life which is saved it's his miracle and one's i loose is the darker part of truth........
Everyday brings something new...Sometimes it's incredibly appealing to be instrumental in the miracle.
I feel closer to my Lord..It happens to be a beautiful feeling in the air.
"In the pain we are trying to look for some gain!!"
The pain of a patient,the pain of a doctor to help this patient in their problem..
the gain of the patient to get cure from the disease and the gain of the doctor here i don't mean monetary but satisfaction that pt is healthy and now going back home.
The smile which pt has on his face before leaving hospital.It is more than million dollars in one's account.....
At the end of the day,lying on the bed with my eyes close i see the smiling face of the patients waving back,saying thanks and bye.The satisfaction,the peaceful sleep overpowers me......
Hmmm.......this is a miracle.May be not everyone will understand but those who does they live for that beauty.
But what do i do for my fears?Even now while writing i'm having goosebunbs......i feel a lump stuck in my throat.......
I'm scared but i can't quit....
Though i'm not sure where Ganu Bhaiya is leading me but i have to show trust in him and keep going......
I had read somewhere"God doesn't work for you but he works with you!!"
I think it's time for me to reduce my adrenaline levels.A Man of Courage is full of faith.....
It's part of Ganu Bhaiya's miracle...He always send problems and solution together but in such a jumble form that by the time you sort out the things, have alreday lived one whole lifetime.........
The Pensieve
Oh Gosh! this blog thingy reminds of PENSIEVE which J.K.Rowling created in her book Harry Potter........
I was thinkin it's useless for me to start blog because i'll never find time for this....but see i'm back today.....i'm already feeling this is the best place to keep my thoughts alive......."One simply siphons the excess thoughts from one's mind, pour them in the basin, and examines them at one's leisure."---(Dumbledore speaking to Harry About Pensieve in "Harry Potter And Goblet Of Fire")
Mind and it's creations......
Living Beings with brains.The power it has - create and destroy at its will........AWEsome....!
Oh i wish i get to talk personally with Ganu Bhaiya i would love to thank him for this gift...."MY MIND"
It's such a crazy part of my body.it's always working on my orders...I mean it could have work like my respiratory system.Without my instructions i'm breathing in and breathing out.Or may be like cardiovascular system.I'm not giving orders to my heart to pump but it's doing that.....This Ganu Bhaiya he has kept everything under his control except our brains.......This is such a difficult thing to control.But still brain is fun to handle.......It's like a child's play.It's at our mercy to work...It's so exciting.I'm sometimes so thrilled about handling myself in diffrent situations in different ways...Amazing Man!
I was thinkin it's useless for me to start blog because i'll never find time for this....but see i'm back today.....i'm already feeling this is the best place to keep my thoughts alive......."One simply siphons the excess thoughts from one's mind, pour them in the basin, and examines them at one's leisure."---(Dumbledore speaking to Harry About Pensieve in "Harry Potter And Goblet Of Fire")
Mind and it's creations......
"The Most extraordinary Miracle Of Ganu Bhaiya!!"
Living Beings with brains.The power it has - create and destroy at its will........AWEsome....!
Oh i wish i get to talk personally with Ganu Bhaiya i would love to thank him for this gift...."MY MIND"
It's such a crazy part of my body.it's always working on my orders...I mean it could have work like my respiratory system.Without my instructions i'm breathing in and breathing out.Or may be like cardiovascular system.I'm not giving orders to my heart to pump but it's doing that.....This Ganu Bhaiya he has kept everything under his control except our brains.......This is such a difficult thing to control.But still brain is fun to handle.......It's like a child's play.It's at our mercy to work...It's so exciting.I'm sometimes so thrilled about handling myself in diffrent situations in different ways...Amazing Man!
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Unconditional Love!!
Hmm....finally i have started my blog.M so happy to announce that this is my first blog...hey honey i hope this brings a smile on your face i made all this effort for you.lol....
Hmm where do i start from......i mean i'm confused about what exactly i want to post here........
honey wanted me to write about my daily activities so that whenever she read through she feels that she is updated about her friend.......
So with due respect to your feelings i'm posting my first blog but to our friendship.....
wow this sounds so emotional.....lol....
I wanna thank my Ganu Bhaiya for his blessings.my friends are my life support system.I'm so fortunate that their presence fills my environment with vibrations of love and harmony.does this sound very philosophical....anyways who cares!!
May be i never mentioned to them but i feel so much at peace whenever i think about them because i know they are always with me...
My friends though not many but quantity doesn't make a difference what matters is quality..
YAGS this the abbreviation of my four close friends...then four good friends PAPAD.....there are many more people who have influenced my life and i'm indebt to them for this favour.Lord Ganesha Bless them All....IT's One of his miracle to shower these amazing and wonderful souls around me.......
love you lot!!have to say bye for now but i'll keep posting about the miracles..catch you later
PS Hey Ganu Bhaiya BLess All those beings who are friendless.....
Hmm where do i start from......i mean i'm confused about what exactly i want to post here........
honey wanted me to write about my daily activities so that whenever she read through she feels that she is updated about her friend.......
So with due respect to your feelings i'm posting my first blog but to our friendship.....
wow this sounds so emotional.....lol....
I wanna thank my Ganu Bhaiya for his blessings.my friends are my life support system.I'm so fortunate that their presence fills my environment with vibrations of love and harmony.does this sound very philosophical....anyways who cares!!
May be i never mentioned to them but i feel so much at peace whenever i think about them because i know they are always with me...
My friends though not many but quantity doesn't make a difference what matters is quality..
YAGS this the abbreviation of my four close friends...then four good friends PAPAD.....there are many more people who have influenced my life and i'm indebt to them for this favour.Lord Ganesha Bless them All....IT's One of his miracle to shower these amazing and wonderful souls around me.......
love you lot!!have to say bye for now but i'll keep posting about the miracles..catch you later
PS Hey Ganu Bhaiya BLess All those beings who are friendless.....
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